We are the directors of our own lives, however, there is something at the back end.
That backend bit is like the sponsoring force of everything we are directing.
тнε εяσтιc sεℓғ- ωнαт ιғ ι тεℓℓ үσυ “εvεяү sεxυαℓ ∂εsιяε тнαт ωε нαvε нαs ησтнιηg тσ ∂σ ωιтн sεx”.
ι ℓιкε тσ sεε тнε εяσтιc sεℓғ ησт αs тнε ∂ιяεcтσя, вυт тнε ρяσ∂υcεя.
The one who produces the result because it’s the one who says what goes, stays, how much you get, and how much you don’t.
This is why the quality of Erotic energy we exude gotta be just finessed. The real deal.
When we inhibit, overuse, degrade, repress, suppress, deny, and refuse to evolve or allow the Erotic self freedom, we can guess the kind of results we get to produce.
To awaken the erotic self requires courage, vulnerability & willingness to surrender everything we think we already know. (Oftentimes, it’s not our knowing)
It doesn’t have to be difficult, even though it can be (I know that).
Today, I am sharing Pathway 1 and for the next 5 weeks, I’ll share one pathway each Tuesday that I have walked to evolve my relationship with my Erotic Energy in a way that’s helped me unlock my purpose & improve my relationships & activate the energy of abundance & ease in my life.
Cultivating Self-awareness-
The first step that catalyzed my transformation of erotic energy was becoming aware of what needs to be transformed and this is what ignites the process of awakening the Erotic self. Awareness.
This can look like~ “Becoming aware that we have a certain desire and instead of dismissing, judging or shaming ourselves or partner’s for it, we get into understanding why”
“E.g~ “Why do I so deeply desire to be tied up during sex?” This question began a journey of realizing my authentic path & purpose in life (of course it didn’t manifest right away, because I had to go at it alone through trials and loads of error & pain) no one should go on an erotic evolution journey alone.
I wish I knew that, and again, I am grateful I didn’t know but had to dig it out of my loins! Because now, I can powerfully support others who would like to journey into healing their pain and confusion and activate their natural state of flow with ease and success
Every trial and error phase added a new potent tool to my toolbox as an Erotic Goddess with which I can support others to powerfully and confidently craft their path and tools to healing using their erotic energy as a catalyst.
For example, at the start, being tied up during sex felt like a big pain and something to be ashamed of. All that this desire could drag to the surface (because I haven’t allowed myself to lean into it in the right way) was the feeling of being out of control in my own body, the trauma of being taken advantage of repeatedly and not having the power to say No, etc.
All the pain & confusion that made trusting in life, people, and my natural state of flow difficult, etc.
But far underneath this burning erotic desire was something more begging to be unleashed, something far more profound. Something that has been there all along but I was unable to see.
This erotic desire didn’t have so much to do with sex but was a calling to my truest most natural state of flow as a Projector.
There are two types of people in this world, and these two represent the different duality and polarity of life force energy. We are all energy beings, however, some of us are:
More Masculine and other Feminine
Active and Passive
Pushy and Pully
Users of energy physically while others are users spiritually
Some of us are designed to use energy outwardly (even though it all starts inside) while some are designed to channel energy inwardly.
Some of us must go out into the world to take consistent action to make our goals a reality and others must simply wait for opportunities to knock on our doors before we make any move.
I belong to the B quadrant. But I had spent my entire life conditioned to live in the A quadrant.
As a kid, I was always considered Lazy but smart. Physical labor or having to use my physical energy in any way wasn’t something I enjoyed or even wanted to do at all.
I pretty much enjoyed that life and got all I needed until the people around me couldn’t help it anymore.
“You can’t always just lay down and expect everything to be given to you”
“You are so lazy, never want to do anything only just use your smart brain to manipulate everyone into doing your bidding”.
“You will never make anything out of life like this if you don’t get up and take control of your life”
Imagine what she becomes as an adult. A workaholic, control freak, and aggressive action taker with zero results.
“You have to consistently push, apply pressure, act now and fast, and go after your goals, dreams, and life. (Thank you Generators & Manifesting Generators).
Turned out the very thing I was taught to see as best were the very thing that pushed my life into resistance.
Then burnout happened and illness followed and I was forced back into my natural state where, I could eventually surrender again and let life happen for me as it’s naturally designed to.
I couldn’t even have sex or use my sexual energy as I normally would. This forced me to start meeting my erotic desires in a totally different way that unlocked a deeper level of transformation within me.
I realized this desire that came out of nowhere and had only be something I engaged in for fun or pleasure was infact my inner compass all that time trying to take that detour naturally, My spirit’s need to surrender deeper into life and activate my receiving avatar to unlock my purpose.
And I can understand why this is the default for a lot of us. Growing up, we weren’t really taught to honor our erotic energy and flow as innocent and as something we need to allow. We were criticzed for following the subtle nudge to touch our body parts casually. And soon we start to associate that feeling only with sex, profanity and nothing else.
What did I do differently?
Did I stop getting tied up during sex?
Not really! (As a matter of fact I now enjoy getting tied up from an empowered place as I can focus on receiving my partner more and as a switch, I also enjoy tieing my subs or switch partners up when I need to guide them into leaning into their feminine energy of receiving more)
What I did differently was surrender to this desire rather than the usual of fighting or trying to control it. Then slowly using the tools that were showing up I started to float to the surface.
Activating my most aligned purpose which is “supporting others to heal their pain and confusion and come to a natural state of flow where ease and abundance is received freely and more openly.~ A Life of ease and abundance on their own terms”.
Next week, I’ll share the second pathway and how it elevated and supported me from moving through the pain my awareness brought into a more pleasurable sailing in my quest.
Thanks for reading this and I hope it does ignite a certain recourse within you.
As always I am more than happy sharing everything I am learning and experiencing in my world. Even more so, it fills my heart always with joy and vibrancy to know I can support others with what I am learning and gaining from my experiences.
It you are ever finding it difficult or confusing to navigate the web of erotic desire & conflicting thoughts cursing through your body, mind and spirit and are in need of support to navigate and turn them into potent transformative tools for yourself & others around you, I am always happy and willing to hold space for your inner wisdom & guide to emerge.
Feel free to reach out to me anywhere you can find me or directly quantum leap with me into the PSYCHE-RESET portal.
Your desires are hidden gems, there is never anything to be ashamed or guilty for.